PUSH IT.
Monday, December 26, 2005
this is a bad time fr a post.
dad's going everywhere trying to find stuff to nag at us about.
like hell lah.go back to sleep will you.
but i think i need this.
i hope you like the present i gave you.sth really small compared to wad u gave me.
i didnt know im gonna feel this way,the horrible thg im feeling rite now.
you know how much i hate it.especially when sumone hu holds a big part of you is gone to another country that's far away fer a week of holiday.i noe it doesnt feel like such a big deal to you.but i guess u havent experienced it.well.its nt only that the person's gone fer a week,but also like as tho the person's gone fr good.most of you wud noe hu im talkin bout.and probly is complicated with what i say and do.
i am too.i dunt know what i want and what im heading to.but after all,this is just a feeling yea?
a feeling that i hope wud soon go..and hopefully never cum back.
i thought i was doing okay..and that i was pretty strong to hold it all up,that i cud even have a smile on my face everyday.even if i was thinking of it every morning.and anytime of every day.
was ever since u gave me that round thg with the christmas card in the envelope.those words drove out my tears.thanks fer the present.but it isnt replacing tigger.
ur there now,hope ud have fun this whole week.
watching u leave was a stab in the heart..especially when i saw u watching me leave too.thanks fer turning back.=)
and thanks fer the second hug.i needed it so much.tho my whole body felt heavy and suddenly my eyes started to burn up abit, it got better when i cried.
im sorry chris,hermit,fer nt turning up fr the gathering.didnt feel like.haha.hope you have fun at dom's house..
and chris,im also sorry fer nt replying ur msges..i dunno but i felt like,even when u said u miss me and there was much to talk about,you didnt show it even when i was with you during mass.i guess it was cause kenneth was there.and maybe i made you upset fer teasing you and shit.
um okay.i think that's about it.ciao.
i waited from
4:30 PM
